they pulled my hair at charm school.

they stole my guestbook during rolecall.

citycitycity. + January, 23. 2003 = 12:58 p.m.

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last year, last january : was all about playing cat power's metalheart & colors&thekids at apt34. pre-dusk & dusk & post-dusk. playing the phone messages ben left for me over&over. black cat diego & i curling up on big bed and watching row of windows change color. trudging up & down three flights of back stairs with laundry and rent checks. running ( all anxious & nervous & excited : flushed, ) down three flights of front stairs to hold glass door open for ben (old 1930s buzzer did not work properly). yes, miss: all of it /

weekend spent in manhattan. waking up on 11thstreet. secretary screening at the quad. walking streets with mr.ben s. the cold. the cold. the cold. swanky bars: elbowed by models. ( but: walnut martinis: !) neighborhood bars: catching up with ben's friends. to soho to see bad band play. all of it, all of it,

esp: idea given to me at bookstore: perhaps, we could, live here, together.

xoxox.

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