grade nine, i looked fine.

dear CHARM SCHOOL, entry, number four, hello ,

at polly a's wedding i put my elbows on the table during dinner! i made out with ollie m. under the lilac bushes. i don't think the grass stains on that marc jacobs frock you bought me are going to come out in the wash. i stole the monogrammed silverware. i polished off the bottle of veuve clicquot. i didn't use make up remover before i passed out under the a's front porch.

and i'm not sorry!

love & rockets, mew meeeew

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December 30. 2005 - what you're good for.
December 27.2005 - nyc, did you miss me like i missed you?
December 1. 2005 - go to: ask a scientist, mathmematics archive
November 29. 2005 - the year of the subway strike. (1980something)
November 21.2005 - you never look back
November19.2005 - and you must realize the danger
November19.2005 - and you must realize the danger
November14. 2005 - oneliner, art dept notes, letters, location breakdowns
November 8.2005 - do: join band at age 16
November 7.2005 - do: mock the vanity.
November 2.2005 - this was in that summer.
November 1.2005 - "required you rely upon theories and equations as evidence"
October 26. 2005 - morning melee
October 25. 2005 - see photo for full repeat
October 23. 2005 - also named sara with no h
October 21.2005 - right angles
October 21.2005 - ain't it just like the night, to play tricks,
October 13. 2005 - headlights look like diamonds,
October 11. 2005 - what a drag it is,
October 4.2005 - like metal
October 4. 2005 - i've got your look book.
September 30. 2005 - it's a deep dark well
September 29.2005 - so mad happy education style
September 23. 2005 - "finally all indications of a subject began to fade"
2005 - do note: behaving very badly.
September 16. 2005 - Do: throw out your old notebooks. Everything has changed.
September. 15 2005 - head swimming on the f train
September. 13 2005 - yes, i read the screen plays during all the long days
September 9.2005 - there in your car where i said those things
September 7.2005 - Sign my Library Card
September 5. 2005 - bright like neon
September 3. 2005 - do: play all of the hits
September 1. 2005 - "grief is unsettling business, elemental & impossible to engage with"
August 31. 2005 - after the after-party it's the stripper-party?
August 30. 2005 - do: take a long lunch
August 25. 2005 - do: look him up online & find he speaks the truth
August 24. 2005 - beloved of the small dogs.
August 23.05 - do: wear h u g e black sunglasses to ice it up
August 21. 2005 - do know: you'll.learn.along.the.way
18 August. 2005 - do: think of death rattle
August 17. 2005 - in the AP.
August 17. 2005 - do: advertise for penpals in back of royalty magazine
august 11. 2005 - at broome & mercer
10. August 05 - hotquietsummer
5 august 2005 - do: try not to despair so hard
August 2. 05 - do: fret less, drink more
august 1st. 05 - down with mary mcCarthy
23 July 2005 - do: look both ways
21 July 05 - do: resume editing
20 july 2005 - do: ignore the hrs spent underground
19 july 05 - do: wish for the after party
18 july 05 - it's a complicated equation: math problems
june 3. 2005 - fractions & fiction
may 17. 2005 - send the air kisses
april.26 2005 - send the text messages,
March.20.05 - hell yes!
March.03.05 - menacing significance.
March.01.05 - shortcuts, brooklyn
February.28.2005 - ungainly,
February.28.2005 - and then my iPod dies...
February.27.2005 - do: think of all of the birthday parties
February.26.2005 - in which we are still adolescents.
February.25.2005 - prada? um, no.
February.25.2005 - competitive? that's a good sign!
February.23.2005 - d is for diamond
February.22.2005 - diorama with sharp edges
February.21.2005 - echoes in architecture
February.20. 2005 - magic marker on the inside of your wrists.
February. 17. 2005 - fun with fO-niks
February. 08. 2005 - do note:always all the absent people
February. 07. 2005 - do: pass out during study hall,
February 03. 05 - train rides are more interesting when drunk,
February 03. 05 - the law of similars and aviaries/shift key
January 24th 2005 - fly into nyc at n i g h t
January 21st - check your math,
1/17/04 - an enormous amount of space: humanized
January 12. 2005 - vestiges from the days of living on scotch tape.
part one: - the good times are killin' me
january 3, 05 - do: talk about takin' it down & tearin' i t up
12/20/04 - "i waited for you winterlong,.."
because you're - where'd you learn to smoke like that,
december 11 - hallways+
2004-11-15 - not to put to fine a point on it,
November 14. 2004 - outline;
November 7th - when you scan the radio
2004-10-24 - revert to old habits,
September 19th - do: play first song on interpol's antics
9.12.04 - slow subway. trains shuffling back & forth. long lines of orange seats all going the wrong way. later, try the L train. transfer to the f. stalled at jay st/borough hall. take the C to Hoyt. & Lee B's black hole sculpture at MoMa's Queens:
2004-08-15 - given up the ghost that haunts your family
July 30 - in which we hook up again,
14 July. 2005 - boxes of boxes
8th of July - (july 1st = 28th birthday.)
19th of June. - wanting the nerves in his wrists
june 18th. - fingertips are very nice to have
2004-06-09 - ramble, whoosh.
2004-05-04 - pox upon your house!
april 13. 04 - couches
march 21st. 04 - befriending analogies.
2004-02-15 - b
December 17. 2003 - do not: become ensnared in a self-fulfilling prophecy
december the 15th - do: think of paper tigers on china plates,
december the 11th. 0'3 - past weekend stranded in bed with flu
2003-12-03 - layers & layers
2003-12-01 - you could have dialed apt34 with it.
November 30. 2003 - show and tell: mixed metaphors
november 30th. 2003 - attic crawl space,
2003-11-29 - yrsssssss
November 24. 2003 - Breaking the Law at Charm School. Do Not: Embrace Inner Brat
november 17th - save the date
11-11 2003 - draw xxxs and ooos on wrists
October 24. 03 - notes re: past hours, minutes, seconds.
October 16. - BROADCAST THIS
october 11. 2003 - How to find pesky poltergeists!
October 1st 2003 - useful things, define useful
Sept 24. 2003 - a short history re: ninth grade
september 17. - do: stop subtracting three hours.
September 8 - scarf, bathing suit, telephone #s.
September. 7 - new mod shoes
August 31. 2003 - After the party , it's the Hotel Lobby...
August 31. 2003 - What the Wedding Looked Like, Part One.
August. 21st. - List for a Lenox, MA Wedding
2003-08-20 - a pale night with heartworms in it.
August 17. 2003 - this isn't the countdown, surely!
august8, still. - half a million people can't be wrong
August the 8th. - sucker 4 the blushers!
August 4. 2003 - all collarbones & cleavage,
august 1. 2003 - try : black suit for northern seaboard.
July 7. 2003 - thin sheets & early morning is for sleeping
June 26 , 2003 - dave eggers is 19, sexy, liar on way to new york
JUNE 25. 2003 - Dispatch from Summer 1994
JUNE 24. 2003 - grrr, resolve to be HARD HEADED,
JUNE 20. 2003 - uneven lines of ,
June 19, 2003 - Needle in the Haystack
JUNE 16. 2003 - Do not: pretend Order doesn't Matter.
JUNE 9 . 2003 - wherin everyone is: " cool, gorgeous, and complicated."
MAY 29. 2003 - do confess: lust registers,
May 28. 2002 - do not: despair,
MAY 25. 2003 - i want you to make it easy for me
MAY 21. 2003 - chruch street & that small cofee shop we liked
MAY 20. 2003 - for whom, for whom is it for, Dave Eggers?
MAY 19 . 2003 - at two p.m. : still haunted,
MAY 18. 2004 - all publicity is good publicity
MAY 17 . 2003 - aaaa
MAY 11. 2003 - do not: cry in front of your mother
MAY 10 . 2003 - proper etiquette has been waxed off but not waxed on, so sue me,
MAY 9. 2003 - , or stayAthome.
MAY 8. 2003 - it had a Spanish theme,
MAY 7 . 2003 - this is not re: faux friends
MAY 6 . 2003 - bridges in the dark go far,
MAY 5. 2003 - sit in the lawnchairs , admire the odd strip of water lit up by
MAY 3. 2003 - this is burned in my brain. books, part one
APRIL 28 2003 - tastes like mint, rackets & an eleven yr. old hound
APRIL 26 2003 - this isn't a car bomb
2003-03-17 - this isn't a time share.
2003-02-19 - subway, blue sweater
2003-02-07 - from one day to the next,
feb 7.2002 - four hours of sleep, for me,
2040-02-06 - california dreaming, winterwinter day
january 28. 2003 - soundcheck, let me back in bed
January, 23. 2003 - citycitycity.
January 17, 2003 - frenchie, kiss me twice on the cheeks
13 January _2003 - shifting gears, highlight summer94
12 January _2002 - "explain our sync"
January 7. 2003 - night hours+
January 7. 2003 - kicked where it Hurts,
January 5. 2003 - fragments, such sense or nonsense
January 4. 2003 - how to make your life extraordinary:
1st January. 2003 - Number 12 in a circle on the back of his shoes.
31 December, 2002 - Vanity, O, Vanity...
17 December__ 2002 - Portrait of Sidewalk w/Guts & Blood
15 December. 2002 - Notebook. Entry.
15. December. 2002 - Pins & Needles
15. December. 2002 - The one in which she steals Car, Levi's ad...
November 30. _202 - novel.or something like it.
november 14. __2002 - dear jjc, regrets are useless!
9 november_02 - Hiatus, spent...
Oct. 25 __02 - 1001 dreams __ revealed!!!
14 October 2002 - rare __ out __takes.
11 october 02 - re-hab .
2002-08-19 - nights spent.
August 15. 2002 - Califor=nia Dream_ ing .
august 8 ___ 2002 - postcard from the west coast ....
July 12 . 2002 - Do: Leave Home
June 18. 2002 - At the Cabana Bar....
June 14. 2002 - Let's play Catch Up, shall we?
May 29. 2002 - Notes from the Underground
May 29 . 2002 - ____
May 9. 2002 - Odd relationship to the truth.
May 5. 2002 - Bullies: Ever see a match burn twice?
May 2. 2002 - Calculations.
May 1st. 2002 - Do: mourn loss of sleep & apt34
APRIL 26 ___2002 - Do: admit you want everything+.
APRIL 22 ___2002 - boys & basements & bittersweet
APRIL 17____2002 - Do: listen to old_radiohead
APRIL 16 ___. 2002 - Certain kind of whiplash; the adjs that surround you
APRIL 14 ____2002 - it's the music.it's the screen light. or s omething.
APRIL 13 ___ 2002 - Where I grew up : apple blossoms & pine needles.
APRIL 11 __2002 - "That movie was made for You. It's Dreamy, the way you want Life to Be."
April 9 _ 2002 - spell things backwards, i guess
April 8. 2002 - Do not: Forget. Real Life is Concrete & Hard Labor.
April 7. 2002 - Charm works well when in Bathing Suit Season.
April 7. 2002 - night hrs+
April 5. 2002 - Frame our image & hang it near the warm bath water.
April 4. 2002 - Iron gates cast shadows on spring Pavement.
2002-04-04 - the things we lean towards.
April 4. 2002 - same mealy quality one finds in 1970's films.
April 2. 2002 - Push play and listen : the nights are shorter here.
2002-03-31 - Royals. Don't Think Twice.
March 28. 2002 - longlost faces once familiar. in 1994.
March 28. 2002 - Do not: speak unless spoken to ?
March 27. 2002 - Do not: Run Away with Rockstars.
March 26. 2002 - blackboard+ today's assignment = free write.
March 21. 2002 - "Break their hearts, my pride & hope, "
March 19. 2002 - ./ close to spring
March 17. 2002 - do: stare at walls, thoughts in other places
March 14. 2002 - epiphanies on every street corner,
March 11. 2002 - lamp from childhood home. girl limbs
March 8. 2002 - do not: settle for scraps.
March 7. 6:05pm - Lesson : beware of trying to make things fit into template.
March 7. 2002 - temperature climbs. fond of +degrees.
March 6. 2002 - turn pages in books instead of thinking.
March 4. 2002 - for the part, act in character.
March 3. 2002 - night hrs demand things of me.
February 28.2002 - wind & windows_4a.m.
February 27. 2002 - Royal. T r eat ment.
February 26. 2002 - Do: expose wrists to warm air
February 22. 2002 - Do: take eyes off road.
February 21. 2002 - mid -term exam.
February 20. 2002 - sna p s h ot
February 19. 2002 - s k a t e.
February 18. 2002 - Extra Credit.
February 12. 2002 - Cold air and Skin flushes.
February 12. 2002 - Progress Report: your daughter's A's have turned into F's!
February 11. 2002 - Do: Draw L i n es of Relations in Margins.
February 9. 2002 - Do not: sign up for free make over.
February 8. 2002 - do not: de s pa ir, eh?
February 6. 2002 - Do: be mindful of d r o o L.
February 6. 2002 - S l i d e s h o w.
February 5. 2002 - Do not: wear self out ThinkingTooMuch.
February 4. 2002 - Geography of Unruly Things.
January 28-February 4. 2002 - p ap er c l i p.
February 1. 2002 - Do: be mindful of weak spots in the ice.
January 30. Ten-thirty pm - History Reveals f e a r. Ah, Horribly Interesting!
January 30. 2002 - After Salinger: W h i p l a s h.
January 30 . 2002 - Light & Shade.
January 30. 2002 - It bothers people. They say: you are so Cold..
January 29. 2002 - do drink: scotch & soda / don't mix it
January 26. 2002 - Do: eschew old habits
January 24. 2002 - Do: make notations.
January 23. 2002 - wherein fiction becomes a four letter word.
January 22. 2002 - do: be dramatic. nest : severed wasp.
January 22. 2002 - in the semi-darkness & it feels
January 22. 2002 - shadow boxes & behold : light & dark
January 19. 2002 - overlap & intersect.
January 18. 2002 - they can rust in the rain
Jnauary 17. 2002 - no viable form of communication,
January 16. 2001 - halted such transplants.�� halted
January 15. 2001 - Do: create Distractions, Diversions.
January 15. 2001 - Morning: Grey, Chilled.
January 14. 2001 - do not: wrinkle brow so,
January 14. 2001 - Mexico City. 1988.
January 11. 2001 - inhale & exhale, the past.
January 9. 2002. - Trick or Treats
January 8. 2001 - End Of Yours Truly. Perhaps.
January 8. 2002. - Air Blurred & Blued: Snow
January 6. 2002. - Things New,
January 3. 2002. - Beau. Brand New.

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