I may crawl back into bed and read for hrs. Then laundry, brunch, & meet beau at four p.m.

Am suffering so from "what if"s.

What if: Moving to Boston is bad idea as will leave behind beau. (last week: drive to movie theater in rain. radiohead playing in dark car and he tells me he loves me all the time.)

What if: I don't move and miss chance at New Career.

What if: I stay and things do not work out with Beau? Will I not feel as though I stayed for a boy?

What if: Staying for Boy = Horribly Lame.

What if: Staying for Boy= Horribly Important & True & Right.