do sneak cigarettes late at night

they pulled my hair at charm school.

they stole my guestbook during rolecall.

in the semi-darkness & it feels + January 22. 2002 = 3:55 p.m.

Apt 34. Open door to wood floors & whiny cat . Down go bags and borrowed cds. Drink glass of water. Eat chai Luna bar. (open my fridge and take inventory : ooo, two dark brown cans of Guinness; Tonic with its yellow label; no food to eat; four bottles of Dragonfruit Wellness water; mask filled with purple gel : c hristmas gift, place over eyes in morning, ooo.la.la. ; postcard depicting Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia & Hans Solo; nothing real to eat; salad dressing, raspberry champagne jam; no things to eat. ) Return phone call to Jeff. (plans, for this evening, perhaps. ) Place phone call to Mark. Listen to message from my Father.

This takes place after night spent at Ben's 70's house. At his place: the door opens at five and in walks Glenn. The door opens at seven and in walks N. Sarah is cooking in the kitchen. Ben and I kiss near the fireplace in the semi-darkness & it feels cozy & surreal. like a home.

Still, am always happy to return to my apartment with its space. Its bare surfaces & radio. Blank books: scribble in. New novels : read at . Climb onto bed with Sunday paper and read Book Review, Magazine, Sunday Styles, Art & Leisure, Week in Review, Travel, Main Section, Money & Business. in that order.

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